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I’ve always found it necessary to cease everything whenever I don’t feel like continuing. Most of the time, I just take a break and then surprisingly break the abrupt hiatus and drive on the wheels again. But I do have a tendency to just stop.. S-t-o-p. Permanently.
Disappear from the eyes of the people and voluntarily cover myself with the cloak of oblivion.
This suicide tendency has been a defense mechanism developed through downtrodden phases of existence. The moment rises every time a need to re-evaluate the mere reason of existence questions the validity of the values being practiced and of the convictions faithfully believed.
Rare. Precious moments. As one lyricist once said.
How do you corrupt a deranged mind by the way? Is it to feed with hopes? Is it to entice with dreams? Or is it to leave it hanging in the void while observing it groping in the dark with its feeble hope shaking in alarming degrees.
I’ve always wanted to surpass the sagacity of the wise and achieve the humanness of the Christ – or what they call Christ; a god that the offspring of man proudly slain because of his rudimentary but characterized teachings. And oh! How he is celebrated today.
As again, I don’t need to enumerate my excuses for lurking beneath the veils of oblivion. I just found the need to close the door and retreat to my cave. I enjoyed the memories though and the experiences would definitely teach me not to trust with life again.
Current Mood: 
withering
witheringCurrent Music: silence
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